Momma, look what you done…

I just finished my first year of college, momma, I’m so proud of myself. Some may think its just school but you know its something deeper. to me. I was away from home, and on my own for the first time. You have to be strong and responsible. I am so glad you helped me get this far, im so happy you raised me right. There were times where i lostt  it where i was irresponsible, I didnt go to class, i didnt get the grade I wanted, I was broke , I wanted to drop out cuz i was confused I didnt know if this was for me. when I didnt spend my money wisely i bought a shirt instead of buying books, But guess what? I made it. I made it through with your guidance and your support. college is the best thing that happen to me. I learn so much about myself, and honestly it is an experienced. i cant wait for you to see me walk across that stage. So i can be a doctor and take care of you the way you take care of me, momma i promise im going to make it and you wont ever have to worry. I love you, I thank you <3

ugh

I cant stand this shit. i keep getting heart broken..its like I fall for the wrong niggas. Theres sum niggas out there that would do anything for me, so I guess its my fault for not choosing them but they are not what Im looking for there either ugly or i just dont like them. Is it too much to ask for a decent looking guy that is on my level and that has NO kids like this shit blows the fuck out of me…..

Is school for me?

i keep thinking bout my life and i don’t know what direction i want to go. The norm, go to college get a job…sometimes i just feel like this shit is not for me but then when I think about it there’s nothing on the streets for me either and i am going to be working for the rest of my life so I might as well enjoy my freedom now…but still work, making money is out weighing school…..and graduation and getting a career is feeling a distance away….